Last year, 2015, I toured with my band Moonspell, to hell and back. Not that we have been in places where we never were before but if the stretch of space was vast enough, the time spent on it felt endless. One must say that is a sign of times for bands, but that one says a lot of stuff he doesn’t know shit about.
The state of music business and the unefable struggle for survival rather than expansion is a reality a singer like me can’t separate from his daily decisions as a father, a husband and a citizen, regardless of where, how and when that decision takes me. Sometimes, I am stranger in my own country, Portugal, where things remain stubbornly the same and with all the traveling, I felt I lost insight and even the right to judge or rant about anything here. Strangely, I am increasingly happy with what I became now. Mammals adapt, seek for satisfaction and this outside the nest – inside the nest dynamics pleases me even if it presents strange dilemmas and sensations more often than not.
All in all, when we started, twenty three years ago (and counting) we couldn’t guess that we will still be here, like the Yo Yo Man on the Echo and the Bunnymen song: ”always up and down”. I don’t really remember what I expected. Wait, maybe I remember it now. So it’s probably made up by my balding midlife brain, full of distortion, smoke and worry. Anyway, life went on, caught up, or we actually tripped on it, we will never know, but most of it is still the same difference, too bad our bodies and minds changed so much lately and can’t accommodate madness and booze as bravely as they did back then. And yet we didn’t know.
I still like to write. That’s why I started this new blog. I hope I don’t add it to the quite populated cemetery of my previous blogs. They die always out of maintenance. I get bored, I get tired and then when I surface I think I left a lot of good and bad things left unwritten. And I feel sorry for it. Especially for myself. Writing is letting go and who wants the unwanted?
So, welcome to The Portuguese Wolf wordpress brand new blog. I created it because I also wanted to rant on Ghost’s awkward Grammy win; I want to say EODM is an overrated band that went through an unspeakable tragedy only themselves will ever understand (even tough it broke the bubble of safety for all touring musicians) and how wrong their singer is in advocating a different gun policy in France; I want to dispute that Adele never goes out of tune, it’s just technical problems, yeah right, shit does happen; I want to point a finger in the direction of the most stupid human being ever left loose online Kayne West; I want to say how great nineties European Metal was and to complain that people do not buy my records often. Maybe I will. Maybe I won’t. I want you and me to be regulars here.
So, welcome to The Portuguese Wolf blog. My blog. Pretty pompous, I know. That’s me. ARH- WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Yes, I used an onomatopeia. I am that smart.